10 years of me – Blessing or curse?
In the vibrant city of Berlin, at the age of 34, I find myself reflecting on my life, exploring the challenges and triumphs that have shaped me into the person I am today. Join me as I share my story, filled with humor, self-discovery, and a touch of hotness for my age. Despite unintentionally spending almost a decade single, I’ve learned valuable lessons from past patterns, toxic influences, and self-doubt. Berlin may be a tough city for love, but moments of personal epiphanies and interactions with others have profoundly transformed my outlook on life. Let’s delve into the intriguing years between 20 and 30, exploring the changes, growth, and learnings that have reshaped my journey.
Discovering Independence and Priorities:
As I transitioned into my late twenties, life took an exhilarating turn. I found myself making life-altering decisions on my own terms. From childhood memories to the realms of academia and early job experiences, I had successfully weathered heartbreaks and personal setbacks. But what lay ahead? With hangovers becoming a regular occurrence, I realized it was time to reassess my priorities and environment. This pivotal decision allowed me to gracefully bypass the notorious “Club 27” phenomenon. Eventually, I bid farewell to my nocturnal circle of friends and Neukölln, embracing the tranquility and structured routine of Prenzlauer Berg. Surrounded by young families with different lifestyles, I found solace and balance. An unexpected ban from Facebook due to political conflicts further propelled me into a reality check. Discovering Instagram as my sole social media platform, I cautiously immersed myself in positive content and connected with creative souls. These encounters motivated me to pursue my own passions relentlessly.
Self-Studies and the Puzzle of Self-Discovery:
The initial phase of my thirties felt like a period of reorganization and self-study. As I overcame countless fears, I constantly found myself piecing together the puzzle of my evolving personality. The realization that I could overcome any obstacle, no matter how daunting, naturally led to a journey of self-love. While some might succumb to cynicism or despair, I consciously chose happiness. Treating myself to theater outings, concerts, and even buying flowers became second nature. Investing in my physical and mental well-being brought unparalleled comfort, leading me to lose interest in the elusive quest for love portrayed in movies.
Decade of Social Studies and Dating Experiments:
At a certain point, I developed profound respect for my ability to handle life’s challenges independently. This marked a shift from self-studies to social studies, where dating became an experiment in itself. While remaining open to genuine connections, I grew skeptical of empty words. Countless stories, lies, and unfulfilled promises had left their mark, making me progressively more provocative. In my quest to challenge my own emotional fortitude, I found myself gravitating toward broken individuals, often staying longer than necessary to elicit honesty. In hindsight, these experiences may sound unconventional, but they empowered me to advocate for myself, refusing to let others escape responsibility for their actions. I implore you, dear reader, to discard these twisted thought patterns, as they offer no justice and only serve to puzzle one’s own sense of self. Instead, embrace growth and distance yourself from such dysfunctional behaviors.
Creating a Life Filled with Self-Love and Authentic Connections:
A life rich in self-love, friendship, curiosity, and passion requires no distractions. Admittedly, confusion may arise on occasion. It’s not always easy to remain true to oneself when the realm of romantic love remains elusive. Yet, the key lies in mastering one’s thoughts and allowing emotions to flow without suppression or the risk of being overwhelmed by them. If you find yourself stumbling from one heartbreak to another or feeling uncertain about your future, I wholeheartedly recommend taking time to be alone for at least a year or two. During this period, creating a real-life bubble of positive energy, much like curating a social media account, becomes crucial. You hold the power to decide who enters your timeline, and the universe will align accordingly. While it may seem like the struggle will never end, personal epiphanies await those who embrace solitude. Armed with self-awareness and a profound understanding of their own needs, beliefs, and emotions, they possess the key to authentic and healthy love. So, fret not, for in a bustling metropolis like Berlin, meeting the right individuals may simply require a little time—nothing to stress about.
